January 31, 2019
We are past the point of the New Year. Yes it’s been exactly a month of 2019 and I am just now reflecting on what this new year will bring.
Yes sue me, I’m behind. However I still wanted to put my thoughts out there for what I plan (and really do hope) to accomplish this year. I’ve decided that this year is the year I am going to make things happen. Not only because I’m expecting a little one on the way (there will be a separate blog post for that!!) but because I fully intend on putting my photography business OUT THERE.
I have been in business officially since 2016. You would think after several years now that I would be more established and have a thriving business. Well…yes! I have been actively photographing weddings, engagements, and seniors since then BUT – I want to do more. I want to make this dream a CAREER. Right now it’s not a career. It is photographing when I am able and working another job to help sustain my lifestyle. I want that to change. I want to shift all of my focus on becoming 100% devoted to my business and turning it into a FULL TIME reality. That requires so much more hard work that I was able to devote in the first few years starting out.
So what changed?
If you know me personally, you know I have been struggling with mental illness for several years now. It is something I don’t talk very openly about since it has been a very personal experience. I’m a people pleaser. I am the type of person that goes above and beyond to make others happy. I can’t tell you how many of my employers and friends have asked “how are you so happy all the time?” or “you are always smiling”. My illness is not something I want to burden others with. I struggle as I write this.
However I have challenged myself this year to change my mentality. I have so many things to be thankful for in my life. Why should I let this illness continue to weigh me down? It has been long enough. I also have to pick myself up for my future child. This is not an overnight fix. It is something I have been working toward for a LONG time now and will still continue to do so.
I hope you will follow me in the journey.
Also, if you find yourself struggling with mental illness please reach out to me. I understand you…I AM you. We may not have the same life experiences but I know how important your mental health is and your life is VALUABLE.
Here is to a new year of opportunities and goals!